by Andrea Renee Cox
Asking for patience (as I talked about last week) or to
better see what God is doing in my life might be easy prayers to say, but the
living out of the answers that come is hardly ever easy or comfortable. I knew
that going into those prayers, but it didn’t dissuade me. The answers are
coming now, and boy, are they ever hard. But still I am not discouraged.
Even when the lessons are hard and break me, I refuse to
give up the fight for God’s will. He is always worth it. My prayer through
those toughest moments is usually, “God, help me.” But I’m finding out that I
may add a little something else to that prayer. My prayer is becoming, “God,
help me. I cannot do this without You. I need You. More than that. I want You.
More than anything or anyone, I want You.”
When the answers God sends aren’t what I thought or were
harder than the “hard” I imagined, the choice is mine. Will I decide to give up
and settle for less than the best God has in store for me? Or will I choose to
step out in faith, no matter how difficult things get, in order to walk in the
will of God?